INSECURITIES

 I have some insecurities, like being insecure on my cousin who just got here lisenced examination on L.E.T and my mom just got her mouth full on how she wish that she got a daughter like my cousin,etc. I don't what to do coz my heart is always full of insecurities. I feel like crying a whole bucket because of them hearing they're disappointment in me being their child. it feels like they're slapping on my of how stupid I am. I just want them to trust me and have faith in me but No.! they don't trust me enough. they thought that in school I'm doing some nasty or not being serious but God knows how determine I am to acknowledged me in my achievement. I just want them to be proud. 


p.s - congrats to my sister/ cousin who just passed.

BREAKING UP

Break ups are the most hard to all people to experience.Wanna know why?
It is because of those hurt you will feel.. And that feeling is s the one i'm avoiding for the couple of years.. Because i don't want to feel hurt, betrayed, and be left alone in this world.. I only want is to be loved by someone who really accepted me for really i am..

Being true to yourself is not easy, because many people always criticize you  in any things you wanted to do.But i'm not affected to them coz i'm just being true to who i am.. not the person they want me to be..And i'm thankful to those people who always see my imperfection because of their critic to me, i would never improve myself to be the person whom i am now..:P